Losing Motivation

Aug 19

2 min read

Despite the possibly upsetting title, I’m not entirely in a bad mood writing this. I don't think I have hit burnout because I have felt this way before. I don’t have the motivation to do much sometimes.

Is this something deeper than I am giving it credit for? That is a high possibility, but I have had moments like this, and I have grown not to be too concerned about them.

Hopefully I can properly articulate this.

I have a lot of hobbies, as I’ve stated in an older blog post. I transitioned from artsy hobbies to crafty hobbies, and now to the hobbies I have now. In each of these phases, I have lost the motivation or “want” to do any of these hobbies. Resulting in me finding something else to grasp my poor attention span (undiagnosed ADHD, I'm convinced).

Here we are now, a strong desire to start a blog, a strong desire to want to write, and I don’t have the motivation to do so. It's not that I don’t know what to write about. That's one of the reasons I started a personal blog: to give me freedom t o talk about anything and not follow a specific theme. If I did, I feel like I would run out of stuff I would want to talk about to stay relevant.

I find other things to occupy my time, like the gardening I'm starting, the crochet projects I want to do, and of course the worst thing to pass the time: gaming.

But I really want to do something with this site. I know I need to invest more time into making this a reality, but sometimes the motivation is lacking. I tell myself that I need to post more often on social media but don’t know what to post. Or I have an idea and don’t follow through with it.

Part of this lack of motivation could be tied to my current situation. Without getting into it too much, a lot of life changes are creeping into my life right now, and I'm sitting in so much uncertainty about my future. I'm one to be concerned about what the future holds. I’ve gotten past the whole “I'm 24 is should be doing this, that, and the third,” but I am starting to worry about my future, especially when the present is sitting in limbo.

The current state of the world also does not help with this feeling of lack of motivation. I’ll admit, I’m part of the party that thinks the world is against them at times, but I am trying not to be in that headspace.

But that's just me! Thanks for reading,

MD :)

(P.S. Check out my Etsy shop for cute little crochet things and Instagram for my photography!)

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